Oh God! (3)

 I  was walking north and I was a little bit happyer when the sun started to come up, I was not used to traveling by night. But I decided to travel durring the day when I was far enough. Travelling by night was exhausting enough without sleeping but on a terrain that everywhere you steped you would trip over a rock sticking out of the ground or a tree root jumping out of the ground and sailing back into it, like a sea serpent. I waited untill it was light enough to see houses in the distance and found a bush to sleep in for and hour or two; But when I woke up it was still light outside and I fiound mysalf looking out to sea. I looked at my compass and thought it was broken `Stupid thing!` I thought but noticed the needele was pointing as it should. Then I thought that I had to be on a peice of land that sticks out of it`s country, with water on both sides of it. `Yes that had to be it! I scrambeled to my feet and ran to the coastline and saw that I was right! I looked out into the ditance to where the sea, sky and land meet and twirl into the some shade of blue. 'Well, what now?' I had to go northwards where the man had told him, this was the first time I had thought of the man calmly in Italy. He had told me to go northwards untill I reached Denmark. But why should I listen to the man, I was my own ruler, I did what I wanted to do, not what the man wanted me to do, I am David. When he was in the camp he had to listen to the man, but there is no need to listen to him now, is there? There had been the bundle under the tree like the man had told him; and when I went south I did come to Salonica; and there was a ship sailing for Italy, so there really is no reason not to trust him. 'I dont need to worry, if it does stick out into the sea, like I thought, than I would just go a little more to the east.' In the town I had to cross a road, my eyes were fixed on the ground, I was looking for an orange because I didnt have much food left, and I didnt, I found a whole tree full! I didnt know they grew on trees, I thought they came from the ground. The road was not bussy so I started to climb the tree, the lowest branch was within reach and easy to climb. I picked two so that I could eat one now and save one for later; there was a nice flat rock further down where I sat and had my breackfast, a little peice of bread, some water, not the mucky and dirty water like in the camp, and to finish a nice juici orange. But I ate quickly, if they had started to look for me they would be here soon; I had to get away I wanted to stay free, forever. When I stood up and tried to dash away I had stumbled on a loose rock and the compass went flying out of my hands and over the edge of the coast. I tryed so hard to reach for it but I was too late; when I looked over the edge I could just see the tiny splash that it had made and then it disapeared into the blue. I stared, at the spot where it had dissapeared, and then worry fell over me. 'Now I will just run arownd in circles and come back to the same spot over and over again. And they would find me.' I had nothing now, the little that I had to defend my freedom was gone. Then I thought, 'God!' 'Oh God!' But I didnt know why; some of the prisonners said that when they were out of luck or had just had something bad happen to them. But I had no God; I decided that I would need to choose a God for something to defend my precious freedom. Only, with one to choose, it had to be the right one that would help you most when you needed it. Then I remembered what Johannes had told me long ago about someone also named David, he lived a long time ago, he had a God; I had to dig into my memory and I tryed to remember the words he had told me, the words were long and amussed me, I enjoy finding what new words meant. "He maketh me lie down in green pastures, He leadethme beside the still waters." That's the one! The one I would choose, God of the green pastures and still waters. I was nervious and Looked arrownd to see if anyone could overhear what I was about to say. "God of the green pastures and the still waters, I am David and I choose you as my God! But you must please understand that I can't do anything for you, because I've always been in a wicked place where no one could think or learn or get to know anything, and I know nothing about what people ought to do for their Gods. But the David Johannes used to talk about knew that even if he couldn't see you, you were there and were stronger than any men. I pray you will help me so that they won't catch me again. Then perhaps I can gradually find out about you so that I can do something in return. And if you know where Johannes is now, will you please thank him for going with me to Salonica, and tell him that now I'm free I can think about him again. I am David. Amen." I dont know why I said Amen but I heared other prisoners say that, they said it when they were praying and they said it was a holy word. It was nice to know that I can go living on now, it was a smart decition to have a god and a god is better than a compass; althout it would be nice to have both. But I did not want to be greedy for Johannes told me that greedy people never have anything good comming to them. I knew how to tell what time it is but looking at the sun and I know that the sun rises in the east and sets in the west. It was a good day I had come to a town and found one of the water taps that people drank from  and I hadnt run in to any of them; perhaps there wasn't them in every town. I haven't seen any sing of them in anywhere and I thought I was going to stay free for a long while; the only problem was food. I came to towns that had people who would leave food lying arrownd without even noticing it, orange or tomatos but no bread, and if you didn't have bread you would not survive. I was lying by a road when I saw a car that had stopped, a man came out and looked like he was looking for something he had lost. when I was surtain he wasn't one of them I got up and asked him if he needed help with something. He turned in surprise and said "Oh, yes please, it's not very good looking for your spectacels when you havent got them on, is it!" He spoke in english not italian. I answered 'no' in a polite manor and started to look for them, on the side of the road, untill I found them. When I looked up I saw him talking to someone inside the car. Was he one of them after all? Can I escape? untill he turned arrownd and said "did you find them? If you can't my wife will drive." I steped forwards and presented the glasses to him, "here you are... Sir." The man put them on and had a new look upon him; he smiled and I knew was not one of them. He reached into his pocket and took out a small coin, "Here, you must have something for your trouble." "No" I answered quickly. "I mean, no thank you." The man seemed a little discuraged so I accepted his thanks. The man asked me if I wanted to say hello to his wife. I did not really want to because I felt sort of nervous arownd other people. But he insisted so I walked to the car with him, the woman inside was not as beutiful as the women in Italy but there smile could not compare to hers. I said good evening to her, after the man started speaking to her in french. He asked her if she had ever seen a little Italian tramp who spoke english with an oxford accent and was ofended when he was offered money. I was about to say that I hadn`t been affended but I decided not to say that I understood french and english or they might start asking questions. They asked what I was called and were I came from, I said that my name was David and that I was on my way to join a circus further north. They didn`t have much intrest in my story and taking the hint that I left in how short my answer was. Now it was thier turn, they told me that they were actualy from England and they were just visiting and would have to go soon. The woman, who was still in the car sugested that they have `sandwiches` they turnned out to be food. Two slices of bread with something in between them. They asked me if I wanted one and I accepted politelly and I sat with the english strangers. The strangers seemed surprised and delited that I accepted their offer and seemed as if they would answer a question if I asked them. "Is there a king in Engand?" I asked. The man instantly said "There is a queen, but no king because the king before had no sons, only daughters. But she is a good queen and takes care of the land."  I had finished the last of my sandwitch and said "I'm finished Sir, can I go now?"  The woman leaned close to me and said "Of course you can but, David, I would like to see you smile." I felt really awkward and looked at the woman who was waiting axoisly, I just said "I...I don't know how..." I truned arownd to face the man and asked "Can I go now Sir?" Rapidly in french the woman inturupted and said to the man "We can't just let him go, he is about the same age as our boys and we don't know he might be english, and besides he is no ordinary tramp, not with those eyes... do you not see his eyes." "Yes we have to, he is frightened, the longer we keep him here the more frightened he gets, Alice, and I am sure he is not english." He turned to me and asked "You are not english are you David?" "No Sir but there was a man in the...circus who was english." 'Camp' was about to slip out but I kept it in. "Can I go now, I didn't take your food without asking first?" "Of course you may go David" for a moment he sounded like Johannes "But if there was anything we could help you with you would tell us right David." "Yes Sir, there isn't, thank you. Good-bye." I got up and sliped away before they could stop me again; I layed down into the ditch beside the road out of their sight. It was a while before the car started moving again. It was gettong dark now so I set off towards the sea to find a spot to sleep. As I was lying down to sleep I was thinking about the english strangers and how they lived in a free country; then I thought about what the woman said, `have you seen his eyes?, David would you smile for me.` I need to find a mirror to see if I ccould fix my eyes and learn how to smile. I was almoat asleep when boom I sat up, the most important idea just hit me, the englishman was about to give me money, so people give you money when you do a good deed for someone else without beeing asked to do it, as a reward. I found out that if I helped other people then I would make money and could buy bread every day, I could not avoid people but I would take that risk. Now only if I could find a mirror, and I did; the next two days passed and I was in a town called Naples. A woman was walking daown the street, she had a mirror in her hand but droped it on the ground and a corner broke off and she gave it a look of discust. I picked it up and sat on a bench, I was excited I was finaly going to figure out what is wrong with my eyes. I held up the mirror and saw myself, I didn`t think that I looked un-normal, but when I tryed to smile I just didn`t look normal. I had to work on it but agter a while I got frustarted, so put it down and started walking to find a tourist to help to get money to buy bread, sine I was in a town. I found it worked better with tourist because they might needed to know what something was in Italian or what someone was saying to them. When I had enough money to buy bread I went on; the day was getting shorter, it was alost night, I found somewhere to sleep and ate my supper; bread and the last of my orange. It took me a while to fall asleep I was emplty minded and didn`t know what to think about. The next day I was walking by the road and saw a man standing by his car arguing with his wife; I couldn`t really hear what they were saying but I fell to my stomach. They couldn`t see me; I didn`t move till I heard that they were speaking english, their voices were raising as time went on. I rose to my feet and walked cautiously towards them, they did not take any notice to me untill I spoke, "Do you need help with something Sir?" I barely spit the words out of my mouth. The man and woman trunned and looked at me, the man looked at his wife then back to me; "Our car is out of gas." said the man in a frustarted voice. "I thing there is a gas station just up the road, if you give me your bucket I can ga fetch some for you." The woman cut straight in and said "Don`t give it to him, he will take it and walk along and we shal never see him again!" The man said "It will be every heavy and you will probably have to get someone to drive down." "But it is sunday and I do not know if someone would want to, but I will ask; I will only go if you keep my bundle safe." The woman had a face of doubt but the man gave me the money for the gas, and I was off. I came back in a car with their gas, and they said "Here, something for your help." the man offered me money, even though I needed it I sayed no, politely, and started walking away with my bundle. The amaericans started asking me to come back but I kept walking; it was upper time and as I opened my bundle I noticed there was a little strange box in it. I opened the little thing and saw money! 2000 Lier! There was a note saying `they thought that I would not accept his money so they slipted some in to his bundle, they were sorry that they suspected him but not all strange boys are honest.` At first I was soo excited to get a letter, I had never gotten a letter before, but this one was hard to read because it was in hand writing and I had never tryed to read english before. I thought of all the posibilitys of what I could buy. A comb, a bar of soap, a pad of paper and a pencil, and bread every day! I was to excited to fall asleep that night I could finally go days without worrying about my food. But the next day was not very exciting; I had come up with a plan to take a ride in a semi-truck, but I didn`t have enough courage to do it. Then I thought `God can help me!' While no one was looking I said to myself "God of the green pasures and till waters, I need help with my courage, I can not do my perfect plan and I would be going alot faster in a veihicle. So can you please let the next semi-truck driver be nice but not to souspicouss. Thank you God, I am David, Amen." I got up from the side of the road when I heard the next semi-truck coming along. I walked casualy beside the road with my thumb out, but my heart was racing inside my chest, as the truck stopped and rolled down it's window I couldn't even hear my heart beating, it stopped when the truck stopped. The man looked at me and asked me where I was heading; I could bearly hear the mans voice over the loud roar of the engine. But I think the reason why I didn't answer right away was because I was frozen in terror. But I answered him before he could ask me again "Demark." I shouted, he nodded and said "Hop in." I was terified but excited to expirience this. I hopped up the giant steps and sat in the seat. It wasn't the most comfortable seat but more comforeble than the ground I had to sleep on every night. We were moving when the driver asked me who I was and what was I doing all the way out here if I wanted to go to Denmark, I answered "I am David. I was going to Denmark to join a circus." The man said that's interesting, but also added, "you aren't running away from your pearents are you." With a strike of wonder I said "No I am not running away." By the shortness of my answers the man said that he was in sort of a situation, "There is this girl where I live and I really love her but my father wants me to mary this other girl, she is very nice and beautiful, but I do not love her." He sobed "What do you think I should do?" He asked  me. "Well I don't know what you should do but this is what you should not do, you should not let someone else make decitions for you, I think you should do what your heart tells you to do." The man wass thinking about what I said, he was nice but stupid, he sort of reminded me of the sailor. He shared his dinner with me and we drove on.

the music that I heard :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4kTei0XrCs&feature=related

My compass.

The church that I saw.

What Maria reminds me of.